My Own Cure

Recently, i was in a total dilemma, and what is it you ask? Ugh! Love.... Pffft! yes, i am human, i fell in love(to the wrong man!), i get hurt, i feel ridiculous and i feel like a dumb ass out of myself! Great, I lost my brain! Funny, i started procrastinating about my life for the past months and how it has reached to the level that i was confronting my sanity. Hmmm...*flashback* oh yeah, it started a year ago! Details kept aside for i know you have already guessed, anyway i will continue my ramblings.

I thought, i was going on my ideals, tiptoeing to my nirvana but but shockingly i was leading myself to some "make believe" lala-land. What can i do? I'm inlove!? Yeah, i was smitten as a kitten, damn i hate guys (not all of course)! Geeeze i'm a girl and i can't believe i fell for those (excuse my language)bullshit! Hah! Imagine, i sulk for long months and i just don't learn until reality slapped me big time! I want to hit my head a zillion times! Probably some people who read this don't understand but maybe there's a few who could relate to my situation. I say, some guys are really two-faced ingrate no matter how you make them feel loved. I wonder how'd they feel after making girls cry? Perhaps its a trophy for them for being a jerk!

I realize that mo matter how heartbroken and painfully unacceptable things are, there is no better cure than realization and acceptance. I know, it's easier said than done but things happen and sadly they don't happen just as we wanted them to be. I read somewhere that says, it's okay to cry and to be a jackass and curse him all you want!(haha..love it!)

Life's short, heads up, let go...things changed, so what? i'm a loser but i'm too damn smart to wear my stilettos and back to my right track again with flying colors!